Christina Thatcher

Two Years

I have never wanted to be alone
more than I do right now,
to block the sounds outside
from seeping in –
children pushing scooters
the thick slap slap of laundry
being pinned to a line,
footsteps on floorboards upstairs.

Everything inside me rushes, rages
against the noise, the persistent presence
of people, cats, birds, televisions
all existing when really,

only you should exist today,
on the anniversary of your death

the day when you began pressing me
down,
down,
down
until I sit here now hating
all the things I used to love.

Christina Thatcher is a PhD student and postgraduate tutor at Cardiff University where she studies how creative writing can impact the lives of people bereaved by addiction. Christina keeps busy off campus too by delivering creative writing workshops across South Wales, running projects for organizations like Making Minds and the Welsh Writers Trust, coordinating literature events for the Made in Roath Festival, and more. Her poetry and short stories have featured in a number of publications including The London Magazine, Planet Magazine, Bare Fiction and the Lampeter Review and her first collection, More than you were, was recently shortlisted in Bare Fiction's Debut Poetry Collection Competition.

Christina Thatcher is a PhD student and postgraduate tutor at Cardiff University where she studies how creative writing can impact the lives of people bereaved by addiction. Christina also delivers creative writing workshops across South Wales, running projects for organizations like Making Minds and the Welsh Writers Trust. Her poetry and short stories have featured in a number of publications and her first collection, More than you were, was recently shortlisted in Bare Fiction’s Debut Poetry Collection Competition.