Dorothy Baird

Middle Aged Woman

She looks forward to snowdrops
and daffodils but relates more
to autumn’s fiery resistance
to dying.

She doesn’t think the world’s
a better place than
fifty years ago. Phones
and Facebook bring shadows
as well as light, and she worries
about their illusion of support: so
often, she thinks, it’s a hug
we need, with real arms, and
real words, stumbling
from an imperfect heart.

She doesn’t want to be invisible.
But feels herself vanishing
as if her molecules expand
and become porous, and a trick of light
reduces her to nothing.

Dorothy Baird lives in Edinburgh where she has taught creative writing in community and mental health settings for over 30 years. She was the founder, and leader for five years, of the Young Edinburgh Writers (YEW), a writing group for teenagers. She has two poetry collections, Leaving the Nest and Mind the Gap (published by Two Ravens Press and Indigo Dreams Publishing) and her poems have appeared in a wide variety of magazines and anthologies. She is a Human Givens psychotherapist and has three grown up children.