Why have I saved her handwriting? A lined page; pencil words:
1. Knit 5Main 5Navy 26Main 2Green 4Main 6Grn 5Main
I don’t know what it means, but she knew. Now her ashes
sift where minnows open mouths and water moves above her.
I can’t understand that either. It’s her message.
2. Purl 4Main 9Grn 2Main 2Gr 24Main 10Navy 2Main
I don’t know the code, how to stitch one colour after
the other, add one word to the next, though I persevere,
a pencil over this page the sign of her hand
once moving. I want her to be in the air again, beside me
knitting or talking. I won’t look away this time, her
needles clicking like minutes. 1Main 12Navy 23Main